Midnight Pickle Podcast
Late-night conversations I don’t get to have anymore — the ones that help make sense of life, grief, people, and everything in between.
Midnight Pickle is me at the end of the day — the late-night version of my mind that finally slows down enough to think clearly. It’s not scripted the way people think scripts are. It’s me reading through my own reflections, my own questions, my own “What the hell did today teach me?” thoughts. Sometimes it’s emotional. Sometimes it’s calm. Sometimes it’s curious. Sometimes it’s me trying to connect science, emotions, memories, patterns, and whatever else shows up. These episodes come from my life, my counseling background, my grief, the things I’ve learned the hard way, the things I notice about people, and the conversations I used to have with Dylan at night when the world finally got quiet. I guess this is how I keep talking — to him, to myself, and to anyone who thinks like us.
Why It’s Called Midnight Pickle
Dylan and I were both night owls. We always ended up talking at the end of the day — long, wandering conversations about everything and nothing. He was “The Big Dill” because he was taller than his brother, and it turned into a running joke. When he told me I should start a podcast, he meant it. He saw something in my voice — the way I think, the way I explain things, the way I connect dots — that I honestly never believed people would want to hear. Midnight Pickle is basically the space where those conversations would have continued. It’s not grief content. It’s not a shrine. It’s the tone of those late-night talks: honest, curious, reflective, human.
What This Podcast Actually Is
It’s me talking through life the way my brain naturally works. Free-flowing but grounded. Reflective but not dramatic. Honest but not overwhelming. I take whatever showed up that day — a conversation, a memory, something I noticed, something that annoyed me, something I’m questioning — and I follow it until it makes sense. Sometimes it’s about grief. Sometimes it’s about relationships. Sometimes it’s about systems that treat people like numbers instead of humans. Sometimes it’s about the weird things we do without thinking. Sometimes it’s about consciousness or religion or science or whatever thread pulls at me. It’s basically the way I think out loud, in the voice Dylan always told me to share.
Who This Is For
For people who think a little deeper than the world expects. For people who feel things they can’t explain. For people who notice patterns. For people who have lived through things that changed how they see everything. For the ones who feel alone because their questions are too big, their emotions too real, or their minds too loud. For professionals who forgot what humans actually look like underneath the systems. For people who want to understand life in a way that feels human again. Mostly, it’s for anyone who needs a voice that says, “You’re not crazy — you’re paying attention.”
Where the Episodes Come From
All over the place. Old journal entries. Chats I’ve written. Memories I’m still sorting through. Random thoughts that show up when I’m exhausted. Moments in my day that make me stop and go, “Why do we do this?” Little things that end up being big things. Sometimes it’s a single sentence. Sometimes it’s something from last year. Sometimes it’s the kind of thought most people push away. I just say it out loud and follow it to see what’s underneath.
Where to Start
Anywhere. There’s no order, no structure, no series to follow. Pick an episode that pulls at you. If the title makes you curious, it’s probably the right one. Midnight Pickle is a conversation — not a lesson plan. Later, this page will have featured episodes and the deeper dives on Patreon. For now, it’s just me talking the way I always have, only now it finally has somewhere to go.